Good Friend

During my childhood, I was used to keep changing school. The longest kindergarden I stayed for is 1 years. Anyway, kids makes friend quiet easily. Not until I was in primary, I started to realise the gap between individuals. The memories of being alieanated still stay vividly in my mind. Fortunately, my change school  life comes to an end. Do you still remember one of the hot compo question in your primary, My Best Friend. This is one of hardest question I have ever attempt. 

In the past, I did not did well in this kind of easy essay. But can I do it today? Frankly speaking, I still cant identify my best friend is who? Who is she or he? For those who think this kind of question is easy, you should appreciate and dont take your best friend for granted.

During my Junior Middle, friends still are some hard to define terms. Albeit I can easily adpot myself in to a new group, are they really my friends? Or they are just passers-by? Having good friendship is some I would green with envy. Friendship was defined when JM3. Sikeling group is really one of my best group. I really love each and every of them. I very happy when I am with them, but for a boy who born in a very realistic family. I know they are not suitable for me. I cant deny that the precious memories we had. But I cant make myself not to think about my future. My expectation of future are quite different from them. Sorry to walk away from tou since I have my journey to go. On top of that, I did have my constraint. Nevertheless, all of you are deep inside my heart. I love you.

P/S:  For those I did not mention, I love you still, cherish the moment we shared. You know who you are.

星座

我一向都对用星座分析人性有点信心。是否有根据真的不知道。虽然不能诠释一个人，但往往我都会同意星座对我的评语。就犹如刚刚看到的：

巨蟹老公似乎比雙子座更具有雙面個性。

家人与朋友前，就会看到两个我。对着亲人，真的不想让人担心，总得干出一番事业让他们轻松。但我相信在朋友面前我真的是个懒个体。

hm... 现在想想，好像好多人都是如此的吧？但不知为何我还是觉得我是双面的。

The Internal Conflic

Days come and goes

Waited for the day

but still far away

Things change everyday

Waited for the worst to come

but it never be met

Does God like to test us?

When you pray for something

Your offer would be tested

Your determination is challenged

Things never get done easily.

I wonder if it is good or bad.

But the I recall vividly the Junction I were.

The wrong decision I had made

Being emotional...

Today, the same issue arise.

She is applying for some work and training programme

The paradox of love

To let her free or not?

You have to carry out thing 

regardless your hope and your plans.

Things just screw up.

School is back for more than a week. Things are starting to get back on track. The schedule for this semester was quite packed. Most of my clubs are having major event which force me to work harder. A lazy drawl likes me will never get motivated to do something not interested. I wonder how am I going to make those event be successful. 

These days, when I read her blog. Wow, it is like very down and sad. As we both are cancer, I understand her feelings when the whole family are against her dream. I believe her family understand that dreams are important, but they just need time to accept that you have such dream.