Distorted State

Time flies too fast for me to catch. The short break is coming to an end. My thought has been distorted since I came back from Singapore. Knowing my friends enjoying their new furnished room and the never-to-be-forgotten university life, I can only green with envy. I made my promise, I don`t wish to change my path again, BUT I am really into mathematics. I have been preparing myself to be an actuary since form 3, excluding my interest and effort spend in math since I was small. Being back in the place where I well armed myself, I can`t help thinking if I am on the best path. I know all road leads to Rome, all I need is persistence.

After reading my friend`s father`s article, I doubt my decision is best. (http://www.sinchew.com.my/node/115151) Noticing the post was May 2009, the date was near to when he knew I am going to pursue medicine. I suppose this is what he wished to tell me if I was there to listen. I really worried if this career does not fit my personalities or it requires me to rearrange my priorities. No doubt, family always comes FIRST for me. Can I meet the expected commitment required, the time needed? I take medicine due to better pay for my family and enticing career. Hopefully I am on the right track!

Forgetting the motto of the path
What`s on my mind?

I will choose again after 7 years!
Don`t let the investment block my way to become Actuary!

Home-Bed and Desk

I was at home few days back. Wow, after approximately half a year I have not sleep on my bed. The long abandoned desk after my UEC exam is still so messy after my return. Yea, home is always the best and most comfortable place to be. Not to mention the differences physically, the tranquil atmosphere washes all negative emotion toward life. What more to request?

It is always a great pleasure to be able to stay up at the silent moment of the night while everyone falls asleep. Sitting on the red old chair which is my best comrade in all the wars during high school (SPM, mid-year and year end exam, various mathematics and science contest), I reminisce the nostalgic events in my life. I used to look back very often, but last semester I was too busy to do any review. Additionally, I am not allow to stay up late in hostel couple with the heavy load of study due to my high expectation in result, I think I rarely able to ooze any time out.

Unequivocally, I met Chien most. Actually I am quite sorry for her as she had to drive home at late evening. I know I had not do my part very well these days, e.g. I did not spare much time for you during my final exam, now I had not fetch you home yet. I know you won`t mind all those minute matters, but it is a flaw if I could not complete my task. Shortly, you will join the work force. I really hope to help you out in your first step, and I believe that`s all I can I do. Having different field of study, I don’t think I can give much advice later. Anyway, I do hope I can protect you as I always do. At times, I may be harsh and criticized too much. I all hope is you are able to have smoother career. I believe you have the instinct to excel in your life. I think I am lucky enough to have you. Knowing me inside out and yet accept all the “defects”, I assume it takes considerable patient and tolerance. For examples, your investment of 7 years before I become a medical practitioner. Hopefully the path chosen brings largest benefit for us! Don`t pull out from this project too early, it definitely will be blue chip one day.

Let the First Step of the Thousand Leagues Begin

Time tick-tock unconsciously, before you realize, he has walked a thousand mile. In the entire 2009, I have been reconsidering a lot of stuff. New goals to be achieved, new challenges that wait for me, picking up new set of skill, even the routine change dramatically, everything changes due to one decision. One that dictates my entire life, one that I reluctant to make but I chose it eventually, the decision that not only affect me, but even make the love one suffers, make my dad invested wrongly, etc.

Yeah, I am sure this would be the final answer. 2010 marks the start of my new life, without hesitation, without disturbance from others, even though with seductive noise in life, I would preserve till the end! I make my promise and I will make it comes true!

Life is a journey that requires persistence.
Live happier, Learn harder!