手的迟疑

有人说当你双手相握，母子在上表示感性派。感性的巨蟹，感性派的我是不变的事实。无论当初有再大的决心，都无法打败感性的我。是股动力，也是怨恨。年幼时，认为自己能决定未来，那该多好。但现在却觉得这路口的黑暗让我害怕，让我好奇，让我迷失自己。有机会体会到被抛弃的选择，是否代表会做出更精准的选择。一失足成千古恨，永远的谜团。人生将会多一个我很在意的问题了。至今，当初的遗憾都时时警惕我，不要再错过人生任何精彩的部分。

记得中学时的我，未知的未来才精彩是我的座右铭。突然发现好幼稚，未知的神秘可是快乐和刺激的，但我不在享受这种刺激带来的快乐，相反的燃气我的欲望。想知道留下来会怎样？人生只能有一个结局，真的让我很遗憾。为何不能从来，让我揭开这两神秘的面纱，探个究竟。

我和你

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6_duTfJRp6E&feature=related

check this link out. is a song wrote by a 17-years-old girl to her boyfriend.

somehow this song reminds me....

人生中没听过你离别前的叮咛和嘱咐，没能告诉你我的心意，还有好多好多说不清其中的感觉。有时我会想，到底你是否是像我所想象的那般爱我，你是否也像这歌手，有千言万语想对我说，还有你永远都没对我说过的那句话。听到这首歌，我心里真的有很多疑问，为什么？为什么是如此，为什么你真的不能不辞而别？我到今天都还很想知道，我真的以为我已忘了你

我答应过你我会好好活下去，即使我再也不能再如此爱你。要把回忆统统抹去，我真的做不到，即使相隔这么多年。但我明白你我的处境。

Last day for business law

This is the most interesting course I have taken through out my years of study. Sometimes I would think what would I be if I study laws. haha. Apperently, I am incapable to study due to low proficiency in language and I am quite reluctant to memorise things. Not until I am in NTU, I realise that actually I dont mind to memorise. Or I should put it in this way. I dont mind to know the step. But if I am required to memorise each and every step, it may be frustrated to me.

Esther Khoo was my tutor. Today is her last class in this semester. I miss her class very much. She reminds me of "You`re Beautiful" , by James Blunt. It illustrates my current feeling. I have to face the true that we shall never meet again, nor I could even see her on the road if I would go to Taiwan. Worse even, I dont have anything related to her. Not even a piece of photo. But please get it right, I love her as she is my mother. I miss you mother Khoo. haha.... Think too much. She is the second teacher I have such feelings.

As the class end, I started to realise that, I would be in Taiwan in coming June.

Is it the right decision?

Looking back, Heading Back.

In the same junction,

Same scent and scenery,

But I am no longer same

Shall I change my mind once again?

 

Used to lazy, slack…

Motivation sounds new to me.

If I continue I will stay lazy,

Do I become discouraged myself?

 

Strong sentiment to stay,

Emotion dominates once again?

Is it emotional or rational?

My worry seems to be dissolve.

Pride of getting an intern

Hope in future career.

Do I made the wrong decision again?

 

Isn`t my problem?
Why I am not studying right now.
Isn`t my fault?
Not being able to concentrate...
What I care most,
switch to Taiwan will change my mood or me?

 

These questions still bugs me.

Without valid reason,

With tons of advices,

Think twice, and twice and twice…

 

Shall I keep my promise?

Do the prides differ with each other?

 

I like pride…

Is it a wrong attribute for doctor? 

I will stay determined.

Medicine, here I come!